baby steps

i'm in love with this headboard. dreamy lokal54

i'm learning to take baby steps. i like to think big picture and then i feel overwhelmed when i don't know how to get to the big dream goal and i get frustrated when it doesn't seem like i'm even working in the right direction.  but the reality is that no one just takes one huge leap and lands at their dream job in the dream house with the dream lover and the perfect haircut and friends and kittens playing at their feet.  there are like a billion steps between here and there. for some reason it took me a while to accept that.
and now i'm learning to take baby steps. baby steps toward big goals.


so i started reading the artist's way by julia cameron. its kind of blowing my mind and bringing me back down to earth and reminding me that i'm the one standing in the way, not the world and all those kick-you-in-the-ass sorts of things, but all in a motivating way.
its reminding me of the artist i am. and that the world is not only for the artists that i read about and stalk incessantly and the one that's "making it" and that other one who has somehow convinced people to pay her so she doesn't wait tables anymore and the pretty one, of course.

i didn't even realize i needed it when i opened the book.


in other news, my cat has become a bed hog.
seriously, i went on vacation for a week and now he thinks the whole apartment is his.

love to you in the rain.