deep summer is where laziness meets productivity.

while i enjoy new beginnings, list of projects, and goals, summer also holds this great ability for laziness.  like it's asking me to wake up in the morning, get some coffee, after reading the paper and breathing in the summer air, sit on the couch, turn the tv to mtv and/or vh1 and just watch music videos.  watch trash. catch up on all the real world episodes you've missed while you were studying, working, or heaven forbid playing outside.  but really, there is something that just coerces me to sit there in my pjs all day watching stuff i don't care about.  

i've learned too that even though i tend to believe that these so-called "music" channels no longer show videos, if you watch for an extended period of time, you will catch at least two.

all of this to say, i still really have no idea why i do this.  maybe it has something to do with the fact that i can and for the past year plus, i couldn't.  whatever the reason, i do it.  and...i kinda hate it.  

but summer, the good season that it is, never really makes me feel bad about it.  summer just pats me on the back at the end of the day, as if to say, "well done. you fulfilled everything i had planned for you today. you soaked in enough mind-numbing american trash for all you missed in the past year. you can check out that list of new projects and accomplish something tomorrow."