Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Monday, November 29, 2010


its inevitable.
the coming of winter.
the end of a year.

december is the sign of this.
the almost painful reminder that another year is gone
the excitement that a new year is starting

the decisions to make a change
to start fresh
to continue what has been
the reflection of what was
to see the joys
to revel in the regrets

the end of a year is always hard for me
to make dreams for the new year
to look back at dreams lost
especially when i feel in limbo once again.

yet it is quite a beautiful thing to see that i have completed my twenty-fourth year as a human being, survived, moved, created, lived
and if all goes as planned a new one is coming to do it all again
but better....

Monday, November 8, 2010

i was tagged...

my dear friend mary tagged me...

1. what actor/actress would you want to play you in a movie?
maggie gyllenhaal. she's sexy, quirky, she plays that bad ass baker in stranger than fiction. awesome. duh.

2. who is your favorite author and what is your favorite book by them?
jonathan safran foer. extremely loud and incredibly close. i have read this book more times than any other. the character and the beautiful and bizarre outlook on life is one that invigorates.

[**to be fair, i love books. and it is hard for me to really say this is my favorite. i have a million favorites. i love characters and the setting of a scene and the feel of pages turning and the smell, oh the smell. maybe we can talk more about this.]

3. where would you go on a dream vacation?
prague for the beauty, and the south of france for the beauty, the food, the escape. and india for the beauty, the people, the different world, and the perspective.
that can be one long trip.

4. what are you most afraid of?
being alone for good. i used to be most afraid of death but i have found peace in life thus peace in death through all sorts of tribulations. but i think what that fear really came from was the fear of loneliness, of being alone, possibly a fear of not ever being known.  thus, this move, this adventure is teaching me a lot.

5. if you could have all your friends on a deserted island, what are three things you would all do together?
dance party duh.
probably have a huge bon fire, find some food, and sit and talk for hours because that's what we do now minus the deserted island.

6. what's something people don't know about you?
i'm continually becoming more and more claustrophobic. its way not fun.

7. what is your guilty pleasure?
trash tv, pizza rolls, spending obscene amounts of money at target, reading tfln.com hah so lame.

okay now you know.