time has changed us.
for the better.

today i cleaned out my inbox.  i had over 3,000 unread messages.
no, i'm not that popular.  no, i'm not famous.
yes, i have a problem.  yes, i sign up for newsletters and coupons and clubs and never EVER read the emails.  yes, the first step is recognizing my problem.  i get it.  it's ridiculous.
but as of right now, i have ZERO unread messages.

today, i bought a new macbook pro.  i have had this one currently typing this blog for over four years and i bought it from a friend used.  it has been loved and is acting like a dinosaur.  i will need to be more social network-y and mobile for my new job so i decided to grow up and bite the bullet. and i feel good.  no buyers remorse here. it will be here so soon. ahhh.

today, i will sit in the sun and read my copy of Garden and Gun that came to me today and i will be happy.

and here i am, realizing that i'm a writer.  again.  and i want to write.

i have wanted to stay private for a while, for some much needed self care and understanding.

but prepare yourselves to be apart of my world, the beauty and brokenness that it is,
if anyone even reads this anymore.
lovelovelove.

treat::ghoulish goodies

halloween is a most delightful holiday. a low stress, all fun, eat as much candy as you can, dress up ridiculously, nothing is overboard kind of holiday which i must say is my favorite.

my love for baking plus my love for this season brings you this slew of autumn treats i have found perusing the world wide web of awesome.

apple cider cookies

pumpkin pie fritters

nutter butter ghosts

no bake smores

wicked witch cupcakes

who knows...maybe i'll actually make some time to bake some treats myself. i'll keep you posted.
autumn love.

friday. march 20. two thousand nine.

i have lived in athens for almost five years. i am struck by the love i have for this town at some unexpected times.

i support this place. have love for the quirks, uncertainties that come with traveler's town, consistencies that come with a college town, the in and outs of music and art.

even during the times of heavy hearts, i have found joy in friday afternoons in downtown. maybe it's the freedom you can feel in air. and maybe it's my personal relief from a crazy week. but it's good.
today i spent some good time enjoying the first day of spring in this place.

i just wanted you to know that i love my town.

sorry if you are tired of hearing it.

a year ago.

i try to avoid being to "too honest" most of the time out of fear, yet i realize that is working against everything i believe in. so here you go.


a year ago today, i lost my best friend.
my heart still aches the same as it has the past 12 months.
she taught me so much about life, simply by the way she lived.
she taught me what love looks like in life. what friendship means. what jesus looks like. the beauty of sharing life with another person. what freedom is.
most of what i live my life for today i learned from her. and that's true.

it is strange to live life without her. knowing that we work for the same purpose. she has made me live better.
her life touched my life.
i miss her more than i can put into words
but i have learned that i cannot stop and sit in my hole like i would prefer.

life is to be lived. that i know. that i learned. that i can see.
i will live out this life in hopes that i could show someone what she showed me. that i could be half the friend she was to me. that i could be centered.

i have a lot more to say that i cannot put into words.

take this for now.